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26 March 2012 @ 09:07 pm
So far, this year has been kind of strange.
I've had some health issues (nothing major, but kind of irritating).  Cleo died on Jan. 30th and the thought of it still makes me cry instantly.  I was supposed to start class the next day, but just couldn't do it.  A couple days later, my uncle unexpectedly passed away as well.  I wasn't very close to him (I think I may have seen him twice in my life), but it was still upsetting.  Since that week, I've been dealing with some anxiety and have been sleeping with a light on for the first time since I don't know when.
I had to make a doctor's appointment about two months in advance because there were no free appointments until then.  They did some blood work.  Apparently my thyroid levels and some hormone levels are higher than they should be, but I don't really know what that means because they want me to stop taking one of my medications for a month and then redo the bloodwork.  In the meantime, that is one more thing to worry about.
My grandmother moved into one of the little apartments in her retirement community which has been a kind of stressful experience for the whole family.
Overall, I've just been feeling kind of exhausted.
I've been wanting to start writing on my Nanowrimo story again, but am having a hard time getting motivated.  I kind of wish I could get some feedback on what I've got written so far, but the only people I really have access to are my parents and even if I get them to actually read it, they suck at giving helpful feedback.  Also this book is a bit more "grown up" than most of my other stuff and even though I'm twenty-five it's kind of embarrassing for my parents to read that.  At this point, I think I need to do some brainstorming.
17 June 2011 @ 01:25 am
Wednesday was kind of filled with little problems.  It was just a day with one hiccup happening after another.  I discovered that my non-Apple laptop is messed up.  When I try to start it up, all I get is a blank blue screen.  We took it to get diagnostics run on it and I hope I won't lose any data.  A large chunk of the story I was writing for last years NaNoWriMo was on there and I don't want to lose it.
I also had problems with a dvd, a dvd player, laundry, our new refrigerator's ice machine, and accidentally baked a pizza on wax paper instead of parchment paper.
14 May 2011 @ 05:13 pm
Got a kind of story idea floating around in my head the past couple of weeks.  I don't know that it would actually make a good story, though.  It doesn't have much of a grand plot idea (not that that is necessarily bad), and it would be another heavy research story filled with those facts about daily life it is so difficult to find details about.  It would be even more complicated depending on whether I would decide to set it in the real world or a made up world.
I don't know.  I've definitely started stories with a lot less.  And gotten nowhere with them, too...
I do think I made a little progress by deciding to make one story written in third person, but put in the occasional journal entry so that I can still talk about events through the eyes of a particular character.  Now I just need to actually write it.  Sigh.  Only one more week of school and then I can concentrate on things other than reading things like Montaigne (which is my last reading assignment for Western Civ.).
Current Music: Sun Of A Gun-Oh Land
12 May 2011 @ 06:01 pm
The neighbors are mowing their lawn for the third time since Saturday.  Why?  It's so excessive and loud.  I actually had a kind of nightmare about it (they often mow their lawn at least twice a week during the warm months, so this is an ongoing frustration for me).
Current Music: Old What's My Line episodes
29 April 2011 @ 12:50 am
Today as I was waiting for the elevator at school, an old guy came up behind me and said, "Hey, did you press the button or are you one of the works of art I see in this hallway?  Hah hah hah."
Why do people say weird things to me in/near elevators?  A while ago, in the same elevator, I think, I was alone with this guy when he turned to me and informed me that he had just been paroled and it was his first day out.  Kind of a creepy thing to tell a stranger when you are alone in an elevator with them.
Anyway, I can't wait for school to be over.  I couldn't find any classes at JCCC to take this summer, so this will be the first time I am not taking a class in at least a couple of years.  I can finally take some time to work on writing, reading, fixing the house, and actually have energy to work out.  This past week and a half has been stressful.  I had two essay tests to do, and the Western Civ. one was torture.  He literally gives no details on what he specifically wants, yet he counts off for things we don't include.  And he makes us grade the tests with him, so I will have to make an appointment to meet with him, either in person, or over the phone.  I will be glad when this class is over.  I will not be taking a class with him again.
14 March 2011 @ 03:33 pm
I never have normal dreams where I am just going about my day.  It's almost like I'm not even in the dream.  The person whose eyes I am seeing through isn't me.  I often have dreams about zombies.  Last night I had a dream where "I" was in an ancient temple or something and these giant stone statues were coming to life to attack with giant stone hammers.  And then the walls came down (like a defense mechanism...against the statues which were a defense mechanism) and kept them away.  I don't often remember my dreams, but when I do, they are always friggin' weird.

Have written some in my vampire story, but not a whole lot.  Planned out more in my head.
Also have an idea for a book about zombies.  It comes from my multiple dreams about zombies and from watching X-Men the other day.  I think it might actually work as a story unlike my previous attempt at writing a zombie book.
It is really frustrating doing research for a book when you have to do it all yourself.  I wish I could go to London and talk to historical experts on the Victorian era.  Or, hey, go back in time and experience things how they really were.  I want to know how people really talked, what their houses looked like, and even how it stank (apparently the Thames REALLY smelled).  I am always so interested in historical bathrooms.  You can never find detailed information on them.  And what about chamber pots?  In 1850, did they still fling their contents out the window?  If they did, did they do so even in a place like Grosvenor Square?  If not, what did people do with them?  THIS IS THE STUFF I WANT TO KNOW.
01 March 2011 @ 11:24 pm
Why is it that whenever I do my laundry, my shirts come out of the dryer inside out?  I always make sure that they aren't when I put them in the washer, but about 80% of them are inside out by the end.
16 February 2011 @ 04:43 pm
I'm sick of JCCC.  The complete lack of maturity and people who actually care is frustrating.  In every class, I somehow attract the most annoying people.  They always sit next to me.  Currently, there is a girl who chats throughout the class, reads magazines on her little electronic reader thing, complains about needing a cigarette, and eats pretzels.
Can't people pay attention for an hour without dying?  It's hard for other people to hear when someone is talking and crinkling pretzel bags right next to them.  But the teachers NEVER tell these people to be quiet or call them on the fact that they aren't paying attention.
I don't know that KU would be any better, though.  I wish I could go to a school farther away that would actually be good, but between my health, anxiety stuff, and money, it doesn't seem likely.

I had a dream about escaping a space station filled with zombies last night.  Very strange.
01 February 2011 @ 11:15 pm
So, there's snow.  A lot of it.  My first day of actual on campus class got canceled.  Hopefully it will have cleared up enough by Thursday that the school will be open.  This was already a late start class, so the material was already condensed.  I'm worried I won't be able to keep up, especially since I haven't been feeling well.
Current Mood: tiredtired
31 January 2011 @ 04:45 pm
So, I've been having some "seizures" the past couple of days.  I put quotation marks around it because I have no proof that is what they are.  This past summer I spent a few days in the hospital getting a video EEG done.  I had only one slight (maybe not even real) episode during my frustrating stay, which didn't show up on the EEG.  So if it was real, it was so slight that it didn't show up.  If it was something I imagined because I was so tired and sick of being there, it still didn't help me.  It's confusing, though, because regular EEGs done by my previous two neurologists DID show seizure activity.  The third doctor specializes in epilepsy, however, instead of general neurology.
So my neurologist cut some of my medications and now I don't know what is going on.  I just know that my episodes make me feel sick and exhausted, so I don't want to have five of them a day when I have school to worry about.
Current Location: Kansas